Worse
There’s a feeling worse than pain. I don’t know how to describe it. The word that comes to mind is weakness, but I don’t think that’s right. Its the feeling that comes with having weak wrists… and its not fun.
Usually, its just subtle pain, and thats that (thankfully not too often), but sometimes its this other feeling. Right now its really bad. My whole right hand, forearm down, has it if I try to move anything too far from rest position. I can curl my hand into a fist, but its hard to move anything outward. its like my joints don’t want to go that way; only if I force them with my other hand. Like a force-field that stops them from the inside. Its kinda freaky. I have to say it makes me kinda queezy trying to move them. Running my hand under warm water helped for a little while.
Not fun, thats for sure. And I’m trapped in Worcester thanks to this damned double blizzard. I was gonna get out today between the first one and tomorrows, but then there was still snow today. Had to bite the bullet and go stock up on food since I was still going to be here.
I don’t even get any latkes, and I’m alone. And its kinda cold. :(
-K